Traitorous Love

Part 5

 

by: AW

 

Rated: M

December 2009

Disclaimer: We all know what goes here, I don't own them.

 

[Directly after Part 4]

 

[Janeway Quarters]

 

Kathryn lay back in bed and thought.

 

More times than she cared to admit she had run her hand over her commbadge thinking she should call Chakotay.

 

More times than that, she had stopped herself.

 

Kathryn cried.

 

Kathryn wondered.

 

Kathryn prayed.

 

Was it fair to raise this baby without his father? On the other side of the coin, was it fair of him to have put her in the position of having this baby?

 

On the other hand, was it right for Teero to have put him through this?

 

Was it always his intention to have her no matter what?

 

All the thoughts that were cramming her head confused her. She needed clarity, she needed time and she needed to think.

 

Kathryn was about to abort her – must have been 15th attempt to stop herself from contacting Chakotay – when she decided it was time to get it out in the open with the father of her child. "Janeway to Chakotay?"

 

"Yes Captain, what can I do for you?"

 

"What time are you done your shift?"

 

"In about half and hour."

 

Kathryn smiled, *Perfect timing.* "Can you meet me in my quarters when you're done the shift please?"

 

Chakotay smiled to himself hoping it was good news, "Yes Captain. See you soon."

 

Kathryn sighed and knew that this was something she had to take care of ASAP.

 

She placed a hand on her abdomen and felt her son moving. *I'm so sorry baby; I never meant for it to be this way, and I don't think your father did either.*

 

And she sat and waited.

 

[Bridge]

 

Chakotay was lost in though. Kathryn was reaching out to him, all he had to do was accept the token.

 

He loved her.

 

He needed her.

 

He wanted her.

 

But all these things were secondary at the moment to the health of Kathryn and the baby.

 

They had to be.

 

They needed to be.

 

They were.

 

Chakotay sat and bided his time. Ten more minutes and then he could go visit Kathryn and hopefully life would be back to normal.

 

Although he wasn't sure what normal was at this point?

 

Finally the shift ended and Chakotay got up from his seat. He walked to the turbo lift and gave the bridge to the beta shift commander.

 

He entered the turbo-lift and slapped his commbadge. "Chakotay to Janeway."

 

"You coming?"

 

"I'm on my way."

 

[Janeway Quarters]

 

Kathryn had just heard from Chakotay, he was on his way.

 

Was she ready for this?

 

She looked down at her very pregnant belly, *Better now than after the baby is born.*

 

She paused and heard the door chime. "Come."

 

Chakotay breezed through the doors and smiled at his would-be lover. "Kathryn, thank you for meeting me."

 

Kathryn nodded, "We have to do this sooner or later, and it has to turn out better than the last time." She scrunched up her forehead, "I was the one who asked you here."

 

Chakotay laughed, "Always have to have the last word don't you Kathryn?"

 

He walked up to her, "Look at you, it's been almost a month since I've seen you –"

 

"- And I got fat, I know."

 

He looked her up and down, "Not fat: pregnant; and just more beautiful."

 

Kathryn felt her resolve crumbling. She loved this man whether she wanted to admit it or not and she could get over his mistakes...she had to for her son.

 

She slowly approached him and put a hand up to brush the tattoo on his forehead, "You know I've always dreamed of doing this."

 

He smiled and his lips descended hers. He pulled away, "And I've always dreamed of you doing that."

 

She smiled, "You're not the only one."

 

She gently grasped his hand and led him into the bedroom. "I know we've done this before." She pointed to her distended abdomen, "But I'd like to do it at least once before he's born of our own accord."

 

He smiled, dimples showing and slowly nodded. She was coming to him willingly and he could not ask for more.

 

END PART 5

TBC IN PART 6